No Sleep - Day 2
It’s been 2 days without sleep, but tonight, I had a fantastic time with friends, so it was worth it staying up. Plus now, I have a huge confidence boost in being single. I’m genuinely happy for the first time in awhile. I really wasn’t expecting to be happy this soon, but I’ve come to realisations that were really shitty. Based on those realisations, I’m content with things in my life, and happy.
I’m young, confident, genuinely a good person, attractive, unique, passionate, loyal, hard working, loving, cute, funny, nerdy, smart, creative and SO much more. I have a lot to offer someone someday, and until I’m ready to offer my devotion to whoever that person may be, I’m happy with ME. And whomever that man/woman is they will be privileged to have me by their side, because I will pour everything that I have to offer, everything that I am into them without question, or worry for my own needs. That is the kind of lover I am, and it’s ok for me to be proud of who I am, because I am wonderful. (I’m not being narcissistic, I’m being confident, as every human being has the right to be.)
And eventually, I will invest myself in a lover, who will invest themselves just as wholeheartedly into me. I’ll get married one day, I’ll have a family, and I will be an amazing mother. My children, will grow up to be lovers just the same as their mother (and father), and I will be remembered for the love I left behind, and the strength I instilled in my children - not the quiet suffering I endured in my life, not the moments of weakness, and not the evenings spent crying over the lovers who left me alone.
Thank you, to all my friends who let me mope and be a wet blanket for awhile. You guys mean the world to me. I can feel a burning desire, for fresh ink, in my bones.